Standing on tables at McDonald's

Well New Orleans, LA was our first stop; then we decided to head back to Chattanooga to grab a few things, and I have finally made the decision to go to Florida to be with my partner. But that's not where we're at right now. Just outside of Atlanta, GA have absolutely no money, and we are taking the negative energy from our bodies and transforming into gasoline so we can fuel our trip (if you don't believe in magic, i'm sorry). We decided to stop at the McDonald's (of course, where else would we go) so I could message my friend on the FB and see if we could crash at her place.
I would like to start off by thanking McDonald's for having wifi and a table for me to sit at. As I was logging onto facebook a youngster of the age of 4 let his excitement get the best of him, and allowed his beautiful star balloon to fly up to the ceiling. I was pleasantly reading my messages, and being bold, helpful Olivia I decided to pop my head in and ask "I bet I can get it". I absolutely love climbing things, it's one of my hobbies (esp when I'm in restuarants), and I stood on the railing to reach for the balloon. My joy and excitement of standing got the best of me...
And I didn't fall.
Instead I knocked the balloon to the other side of the ceiling, residing over the table I had been sitting at.
"would it be okay if I just stood on this table" I didn't want my nasty bottom of the black flip flops I've been rocking since Burbon Street to mess up the delicacy of the McDonald's table, and besides what would customers think of a hippie/gpysy queen from Chattanooga, TN standing on a table? Regardless of my doubts, I was supported by the desperate mother to help her young tike, so I stood on the table and made myself known to all the hick-bums enjoying their mcdoubles and fries.
My short lived fame landed me in no trouble, and I was deeply appreciated by the mother and her young tike. Standing on tables to help the needy at McDonald's is the beginning of this journey I'm embarking on, and "I am opening up in deep surrender to the illuminate light of the one". I know that whereever I am going, whatever I am doing that it's all going to be okay and everything I need to have happen is happening. I am the creator of my world, and I allow God to create for me. I will be in and out of blog service- but every single time I write I plan to talk of my travels, and express myself creatively. I'm so appreciative of the internet, I can now document all of the experiences I'm going to have and share them with my friends!
Until next time,
-Olivia

re-creation

The destruction period of the past has almost come to a close, now is the moment of truth; will I recreate myself in a positive light and fulfill all of the dreams I have, or will I trip and fall for going to fast and not realize what's actually going on? Well of course it's the first one! As afraid as I am to recreate myself I know that it's necessary. There are a lot of things I love about old Olivia, and there are a lot of insecurities, fears, and overall unproductive parts of my life that need to go. The destruction period is always the hardest; being honest with yourself, telling yourself what you like and don't like, why you like it and where you're coming from. There are so many things we can be, and there are so many costumes I have created for myself, and roles that I want to play out, but I must prioritize first. I have to be organized in my creation process. I'm still transforming, but I know that when I'm ready to go, the gravy train will move and I will be the best damn business owner in all of Chattanooga. No more running from my dreams because I think I can't achieve them. Do I need a man to be with right now? Do I want a man to be with right now? I guess I'm about to go find this out. I'm coming back to Chattanooga, just going on a mini-vacation to Florida this weekend. I need to let go, discover who I really am, and allow that light to shine bright! I hope you faithful bloggettes have a wonderful weekend, and I will keep you posted on the re-invention of myself; I know that this girl is going to stick around for a while, so no need to fear if I'll be here. All of you Chattanoogans have a great time at the Flock Party, flap your wings and fly for me!
Until Next Time,
-Olivia

Groovy

Do you ever just get the feeling that something great is going to happen? After a two hour crying session and letting go of old angers and hurts and sorrows of my childhood I packed up all my stuff to move out of the apartment I've been staying in for the past couple of days. I was laying on the couch reading Life of Pi (which I suggest you all should read) and I just had the urge to get up and go. I put on my pink, fluffy jacket... because it's snowing outside, damn Tennessee weather, and headed to UTC campus. Even though I'm not taking classes this semester I'm still enrolled so I hopped on the computer and now here I am.
I just have this amazing feeling within me that something amazing is in the works of happening. The past couple of days have been quite bumpy, but it was definitely the push I needed to head the right direction. I have finally come to the conclusion on what life I want to create, after opening many doors for myself, I know which way I am going.
It feels good to close the other doors, and as I do I know that more will open in the direction that I want and need to go in. I am pursuing my gift of healing, and massage school is starting in August! I cannot wait to get back into school and start learning about the body, all the muscles!!!
Throughout this lesson I've learned so much; what to do and what not to do. I have discovered many powers hidden within me, and although I wanted to activate all of them, I realize now that I don't have to do everything at once. I have created order within my life, the Divine Wisdom has guided me, and now my inutition is filled with love and fullfillment. The feeling within is definitely going to be shown without. Having a family one day is probably the most important thing to me, therefore cleaning up my family's karma is important so my children will have better. I use my future children as motivation to pay off all of my debts and student loans, create financial stability and a great home to raise my children in one day. I have had this complex for quite sometime that it was ultimately my job to become famous and spread the message of the Word of God to all who could hear. I'm letting that go, because in all honesty being famous sounds super stressful... and I can share my message with everyone I meet. My name will always live on forever because of this blog, because of facebook, what a GREAT thing our ancestors pioneered for us! What a great way to release the suffering of it all! I know that all the college kids out there who read my blog can relate to the pressure of figuring out what the hell to do, and here is my advice to you. Follow your intuition, follow your heart, and allow the One Life to show you your gift, because we were all born to do something, and through that something we will touch as many people as we need to.
Until Next Time,
-Olivia

Time and Space

There is always the moment in time when you realize that you're still here on Earth. I have a vision. I want to put this vision into action. How do I do it? You just do it, right? You have the will power to do all the things you want to do, and you have the creative talent... why not just do it? I need a good space. I'm waiting for the right time. The time is now. I'm waiting for the right space. There is always space. How incredibly important it is to contribute to society. I would rather run. I want my name to be put in lights for all the things that I'm doing. I want my creative energy to flow into the projects I want to do. I want to create so much for the world. I need focus. I have focus. I need to write. I do write. Time and space are all still existing, Mother Earth is still spinning, and I'm still here. Fear. Fear of succeeding. Fear of failing. Fear of being judged. I'm going the right way, I'm doing the right thing. I keep telling myself that it'll be fine, you can't make everybody happy all of the time. I'll get through this time and space, and I'll exist elsewhere when the time comes. It all comes down to doing what I actually want to do. 1. Be a famous writer 2. own a hulahoop company 3. be a massage therapist 4. Work two jobs and make a lot of money to save up to travel Focus on the four things I want right now. I don't need to be the one giving advice right now, I need advice. I want to run, I want to run so fast and so far away from here. I want to just quit it all again; I want to go back to California and wake up on the beach everyday, knowing that I'm going to learn more and more about God. I can learn about God everyday in this time and space as well. Staying put. Motion. Patience. Being Patient with myself. Knowing that I'm capable of writing a book on my experiences in life. To everyone who is out there reading my blog, supporting my off the wall thoughts, I appreciate you. Thank you.
Until next time,
-Olivia

changing winds

So I love the curve balls being thrown at me right now. It's like I'm a warrior and everyone is like "Olivia, take more responsibility, we want to see you be responsible" and I'm all like "Alright, you need to see it.... let's put these words into action". As far as being responsible goes I've learned how to be irresponsible. Not only have I accumulated tons of debt for a 22 year old gal, but I've also am guilty of being irresponsible in the past with money. In other areas I'm super responsible. I'm great at finding jobs, and I'm always on time, I know how to apply for school, and I know the one secret that everyone in the world should know but doesn't; the thoughts that I am thinking are responsible for making my world, and once I weed out all the ill thoughts that have been fed to me since I was a kid (no offense, we're all victims of victims) I can now take responsibility for my life. Through becoming responsible for my life I am now becoming the controlling factor in all of what happens to me. I am in control of how I react to others, I am responsible for my income and my nessecities, but the great part about it is I know how safe I am! I am so grateful for my travels out west, because it taught me to trust the Divine wisdom that is ultimately guiding us all, and to know that if I am capable of letting go of things that I already have, they'll always come back. I let go of it all. I release all these emotions because they were never mine to begin with; this body is a rental, this body is the emotions, this body is what gives us the taste of life. We are all so attached to this body and the image that we portray, and it's understandable as to why we would want to be, it's the only thing that makes it real! But what people do not understand is that our body, mind, and soul all need to be working together in order to have a harmonious relationship with yourself, as well as others. The mind is the controller of the body, but the body reacts to the mind, and sometimes the body does it's own thing when it needs to get a poison out and the mind isn't helping. The soul is what's inhabiting both, and these two are our vehicles to a successful life in this world. We should not be attached to the mind nor the body, because ultimately both are constantly changing... and we can choose to go with the flow, or we can fight the flow; and when we fight the flow with our mind or with our body, our soul gets lost; we forget where we came from. We forget who we really are. We find ourselves in the drama of life, and we are actually playing the part rather than watching ourselves play the part from birds eye view. Becoming an enlightened being is no easy task; in order to do so you must let go of everything that you've ever thought was yours, and start your walk with God. If you give it away, it doesn't feel as bad as if it were taken... That's all what we're down here learning; give and take. Mother Earth donating her entire body to allow us to play on her; and through that we developed the mind, and with the mind as our tool our soul was able to come down and experience the taste of life. The winds are changing, and I'm allowing the magic to unfold. I know that whatever happens, it's all gravy baby!
Until Next Time,
-Olivia

attempting the first novel...

I've started this story so many times, and because I want to tell all of the details I end up stopping myself, and not finishing.
As many of you know in August of last year I left college behind, and went on a spiritual sabbatical on the west coast; discovering so many spiritual truths through the great teachers I met as well as the amount of time I spent alone with Mother Nature. Because I was creating the experience, and so much was happening to me everyday it's difficult to re-create everything. Through this poem I am going to recapture my experience of being homeless for six months on the west coast of the United States.
Freeing. It was absolutely freeing the day that I said goodbye to everything that I had.
The tears falling down my face when I said goodbye to my mom.
The racing thoughts of what would happen once we got out to the west coast.
Driving. Driving as fast as we can to get as far away as possible.
Stopping every few hundred miles.
Eating Adderall to stay awake. Chain smoking to pass the time on the road.
Fear. Absolutely struck with fear.
My partner in crime, she was the only thing that kept me from knowing that everything was going to be okay.
Octopus Project. Playing the same song over and over.
Driving to the beat of the drums.
Finally getting to Las Vegas three days later.
4am, sleep deprived.
Seeing Hunter S Thompson's spirit as I write about the Fear and Loathing I felt in Las Vegas.
Where do I even begin?
Driving through Utah.
Seeing my ancestors in the rocks, balling my eyes out as Mother Earth's story began to unfold for me.
Experiencing my astral body transform as my partner in crime tells her parents we have left Tennessee and are about a couple hours away from Colorado.
Deciding to be homeless.
Giving the car back in Boulder.
Sleeping at the Greyhound Bus Station.
Getting our first dose of west coast travelling kids.
Headed to San Francisco.
There are some things you just have to experience for yourself to fully understand the feeling one can get when the emotions are provoked correctly.
Running away from home is one of those things.
As I continue you to explore my emotions, understand how to comprehend/communicate clearly, the story will get better. San Francisco is where it all began. Portland is where it all ended. The ups and downs, and in between are personal; emotional really. Recapturing the moment I met my first love while slack lining in the plaza of Arcata, CA. Tripping acid in the redwood forest, completely releasing all fears and worries to the trees as I balled my eyes out. How am I to do this? How am I to write a best selling novel on such a personal experience? It can and will be done. Until then, I'm going to keep dropping hints about the trip on my blog... keep you guys intrigued, right?
Until next time,
-Olivia

Taking Action

Taking action.
Applying what I know to my life, creating my world through my thoughts.
Sharing my knowledge with the masses; everybody deserves to know.
Set yourselves free from the mental slavery that was put upon you with no mistake.
Now is the time to express yourself creatively, spread your messages of love in any way you want to!
Allowing the magic to unfold, pushing forward, ignoring the road blocks, finding a way around them.
Letting go, dying every day.
God is living through me in every way.
Having a direction, seeing how the past created my present, which is creating my future.
Only exisiting in one time and space, but the details are so important to see.
Enhancing my senses, using them to my advantage.
Taking back what was mine in the first place, sharing my message of freedom with all that is around me.
Balancing my chakras, taking deep breaths.
Meditating to find out the answers that I want.
Getting in touch with my spirit, discovering more and more each day.
Learning to communicate my message of love, hope, peace, and harmony in all the languages of the world.
Speaking with my body, knowing how she moves and works.
I am safe to exist in this time and space.
I am safe to take action in the way that I want to.
Words are magic; if you think it, it MAY happen, if you say it, it WILL happen...
we always have the capacity to change anything we don't like in the present moment through positive affimations, faith, and trusting the process of life.