Wednesday, February 19, 2014

my life uncensored


Today started off a little bit on the wrong foot. I woke up late (I had been doing that for the past two days because I have just moved and I am getting adjusted and I feel tired) and had to pull over to the side of the road to feed Iris because she was just not having it. In doing this it made me realize that I had forgotten the breast milk at home. So back up the mountain I went, already running late for school. I just kept doing positive affirmations in my head, and I didn't let this set back get to me... I've been doing that a lot lately and it has truly done wonders for my life. I get to school an hour and fifteen minutes late, and when I arrive I find out that my teachers Dad is dying... I instantly hug her. The day went rather well until around lunch when I was called in to give a massage which wasn't on my clinic day, and I was totally fine with it. I came out of the massage and it was time to go, I told the massage manager of the day that my client needed to lay for about five minutes and that I had to go because it was time for me to take Iris to the doctor. Five minutes down the road I get a phone call saying that I had a massage to give that day from the lady who I just saw in the office, and I had told her that I wasn't going to be the one giving her one today... I don't really want to go into details about what happened, but basically I ended up getting sucked into the black hole of "we have to handle a problem you created because you forgot some things and we are now going to be super mad at you" and ended up crying. They had no fucking compassion. Not one bit. Which made me realize that this world is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too filled with hate for me. Seriously, the problem wasn't even that big of a deal, in fact it was solved so quickly and without me being there, but they all still felt like "i made the program look bad" and that I wasn't taking care of my shit, and it really wasn't even that big of a deal. Nobody died, she got a massage, she was happy, and everything went about smoothly. Why in the WORLD do we have to treat each other with so much incompassion? Yet another lesson learned in the importance of compassion. Of course, I forgave them for they know not of what they do, and I have compassion for them because they were suffering in that moment....


My living situation has finally been solved! I am living in the woods on a ton of land in an awesome house with my friends Mike, Satori, and Avian. We are building a community center here, and it is going to be soooo fantastic!!!!! I am mostly excited because I don't have to worry about going anywhere for a really long time and I can just chill and manifest goodness.

My new job is pretty cool. I make 7.25$ PLUS tips and the atmposphere is quite alright. Not too bad, i can see myself staying there for a while.

I am definitely growing as a massage therapist. The massage I got last night was a real eye opener about how I can improve SOOOOO much. I really need to get on learning the attachments and such because I realize the importance of knowing all this stuff, to really help someone's body.

Bonnaroo line up comes out today, and I am 100% sure that my all time favorite band Modest Mouse will be there.


My life is fantastic and I have so much joy and wonderful times, and I would say minus the 5% of the day that I didn't recieve any compassion, 95% of my day was filled with so much love, compassion, and joy. So what some people just don't get it, that's why us boddhitsatvas are here, ya know... to teach the stubborn human race how to treat one another. I am gonna keep doing me, keep showing my love, and shining my light because I am fucking awesome regardless of the minor mistakes that I make... the perks of being a new momma.

Until Next Time,


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