I think part of the reason I have such a hard time with school is the lack of personal connection I feel with my peers.
We are all on this journey together, but I don't really have anyone to talk about what my experience is, because they are just not at the capacity of understanding. Oh, the joys of being an Aquarius.
That's why I have my girls (tantra goddesses you know who you are adding a few who aren't in the group but should be), and occasionally my boys, although most have moved away. I am one of those people that needs friends to feel complete... so when the threat of losing a friend comes up, I do everything in my power to make sure that does NOT happen.
There is this guy at school who is on my level. He is taking up something different than I am, but he came in for a massage one day, and I gave him some reiki, and at the end he said "that was awesome, were you meditating or something" and after that we were friends. It's nice to have the closeness with someone in a world that makes you want to feel so separated.... it's all one though, and I am getting to a point where I just love because there is love.
I should probably start blogging more often now that Iris is getting bigger, and I'll be taking online classes, and I will have WAAAAAAAAAY more time to do the things that I have put on hold to finish up massage therapy school. Writing is good for me, and it's a way to get the voice in my head out... the voice that wants to be heard to badly.
Love. God there is so much love in my life right now. I have everything to be thankful for.
I have been learning more about the manifestation process; it's so sacred, and so profound, that words like "gratitude" and "law of attraction" are only parts of the pie.... IT'S A DIVINE BEING SHINING ITS LIGHT THROUGH US TO HEAL OUR SOULS AND SAVE OUR PLANET. It's amazing beyond belief. And this is the focus that I must maintain. I must just keep radiating the positivity, and being grateful for every single thing I have.
From observing the consciousness of my mind, I find that the negative energy is like a parasite that attached itself to my energy field (I remember at one point on my journey being told that you don't know what people's aura's are holding, so always protect yourself and be careful); it was never apart of me, in fact it was an entity of it's own. A life sucking piece of dark matter that wanted to take me down with it, but that's not happening. That negative parasite in my energy field comes from a long history of family karma, of my soul actually GOING to hell.... it's been a rough road for the human consciousnesses, myself included. Unity Consciousness is starting to really take hold nowadays. It's nice. The entity is gone, but there is still work to be done. A good friend of mine, Stasia Bliss, says the work is not done until ALL OF THE HUMAN race knows. We all have to know.... learning to spread the word effectively is a difficult one, thank god I'm not the only one who is doing ti though.
Love Love Love. All you need is love. Ramblings and such.
Going to write a more focused blog about parenting in the near future.
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Until Next Time,